… I don’t just get a little wet. I get walloped by a hurricane.
I recently wrote about all the things that have been stressing me out. I’m pleased to say that I’ve either dealt with or made peace with quite a few of those items. I bought a car. I bought a new wardrobe. I decided to upgrade my daughter’s birthday party package so that I don’t have to do anything other than show up. I have made all sorts of plans to see many of my soon-to-be former coworkers socially, so I no longer feel like I’m losing absolutely everything that I’ve known for the last 16 years. And I even feel better about my upcoming ballet performance, after a mostly successful dress rehearsal. I am NOT at peace with how much money we have spent lately… but I’ll get there. I have no choice. It had to be done.
But it seems that the universe isn’t quite finished with me yet. A couple of new, and rather significant stressful events have occurred.
First- I have been a shitty blogger lately. I’ve had so much going on, I’ve neglected this space, and haven’t kept up with my reading and commenting. I’m terribly sorry, everyone. I’ll be back when the dust settles a little bit. I have LOTS to say…
Secondly- While at work on Saturday, I was suturing a line into a patient’s wrist when I accidently stuck myself with the dirty needle. This is my second dirty needle stick in my career, and it’s terribly stressful, waiting to find out if the patient has Hepatitis or HIV. This particular patient is fairly low risk, but I am obviously still shaken, and saying silent prayers for good news.
Finally- You might recall that, around the time I applied for the job that I am set to start on June 20th, I applied for another job. I never expected to hear anything from them, as the job is at a very large organization, and they typically have a huge pool of internal candidates to choose from for leadership positions. Well, I got a call from them on Friday. They want to interview me. I am STUNNED… and extremely conflicted. This job is a perfect fit for me both personally and professionally- significantly more so than the job I have already accepted. And with this job would come a significant raise, more vacation time, and better, more flexible work hours. It’s a dream come true, and quite possibly, a once in a lifetime opportunity (especially in my insanely saturated profession). But the fact that I have already accepted a position somewhere else is weighing heavily on my mind.
I have already decided to go for the interview- for the experience, if nothing else- but what on earth am I going to do if they offer me the job? Should I take it and leave the other organization in the lurch with very little notice? Can I even do that, after signing an offer letter? And if I were to go with job #2, how would I ever silence that little voice in my head that would endlessly berate me for not living up to my obligation to the organization that offered me job #1? Any thoughts or advice would be appreciated- this is uncharted territory for me, and I just don’t know what to do!